Well, today I had my second migraine in 9 days. I started the day out pretty tired from a night of broken sleep, spent 40 minutes at the doctor's office waiting to get my blood drawn, ended up with a blown vein, gross. Anyway, I was tired and a little "sinusy", but thought it would go away. By the time I left Pearls, I knew better.
I was in bed by noon after calling my back-ups. It was a doozy and nothing brought relief.
I laid there and let my mind wander, and kept thinking of people like Shane Gross, who is having a procedure done on Monday, another friend of a friend having a procedure on Monday also, little Jayna having surgery on Wednesday, Dena in the hospital, my brother's kidney stones, my cousin's grief, my mom's knee, and a number of other people going through hard times. It was like a recording was playing over and over. This is common when I'm in pain, but it's usually a weird song or image. I don't know if it's a hallucination thing or what, but it's usually repetitive. I think God meant for these people to cross my mind, and I prayed for them over and over. Blessing #1
I called my mom around 2 to make sure she got my message about picking the girls up. She did, and added, "I'll feed them dinner and bring dinner to you and Steve at six." Blessing #2
Steve got home around 5:30, came directly to me, kissed my forehead and brought me a cold cloth. Then he does what I need most, left me alone in the dark. Blessing #3
I finally emerged from the room around 7 or so. Steve and the girls were playing Euchre at the kitchen table. Steve jumped up and began shutting off lights to protect my eyes and met me with a big hug. Serena joined in the hug, then Natalie said, "Make room for me!". They group hugged me and I felt an abundance of love from them. Blessings #4 and #5.
Steve showed me the dinner that mom had made, which he had kept hot in the oven, hoping I would be well enough to eat it. Blessing #6 By the way, it was my mom's typical yummy home-cooked comfort food and I had seconds. She also left me a beautiful calendar and cookie jar from Kindred Hearts, some Vernors, and an angel food cake. Blessing #7.
My dad offered to help in the morning getting the kids to school if needed. He lives in town, I live in North Bradley. Not convenient at all. Blessing #8.
Serena prepared a special vernors for me with a straw, the dog rested at my feet, and I waited for "American Idol" to come on. Blessing #9
Steve gave me a long massage, trying to ease the tension caused by the migraine. Blessing #10.
I don't think I have to tell you that I have an amazing family. God has blessed me with migraines. I know that sounds weird, but each time I have one, I am reminded of his love and my family's love and devotion. It takes away the pain of missing out on getting to see them after school and painting Serena's nails, as I had promised the night before. They've come to accept that this just happens, and they love me right through it. This is really what sick people need. Tons of understanding, compassion and good old fashioned love. I am blessed also because I know that this could be a 4-12 hour thing and it will be done. I don't have to live with it day after day like some people live with pain. I am blessed that at least I am home and can be sick, unlike working people who have to take time off and don't have a good support team.
My kids are blessed because they see a dad who takes great care of their mom. They have grandparents who will step in and care for them while mom is sick. We are blessed that they live close by. Blessings # I've lost count!
Blessings are everywhere. You just start counting and you'll see.
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