Friday, November 14, 2014

Tired

I don't know what to think. I have been praying for the unity of my family for years. I pray daily for their protection. For salvation, for health, for our families to be united as one. I pray and say their names one by one. Somehow I thought this was going to lead to something miraculous. 
I have felt called to be a peacemaker, and have often put myself in the position of encouraging one family member to go to another and ask forgiveness if necessary. I have seen relationships repaired. There have been some blessings. For some reason I thought this was the beginning of something more beautiful. 
But it has not been that way. Time and time again things keep falling farther apart, not closer together, and our unity is seen at funerals. 
I don't know what to think. Am I asking for too much? I didn't think God had limits. 
We are a tired family. 
Just being honest. 
That's what grief is. 

1 comment:

Angela said...

Hi Jami, Your honesty on your blog will be very helpful with the grieving process. I am honoured to be trusted with your honesty. I can't imagine loosing a sibling. I am glad that you have support even if people are missing. I pray your ultimate comfort, wisdom and support will be found in God, our Father. I'm praying for you and will email you soon.

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