Wednesday, October 16, 2024

Remembering the Professor

  He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God. 

Micah 6:8 


I frequently peruse the obituary section of my local paper. Don't ask me why–it's always been a habit of mine. If I ever come across my name in there, I'll let you know. A few weeks ago I came across the obituary of someone whose face was vaguely familiar. I looked at the name, and something jostled in my memory. I toggled the recesses of my mind and stared into his warm brown face with the gentle brown eyes, and it came to me. This was my Honors Political Science professor from college. I hadn't seen him since my first semester of school, when I walked into his class as a young teenager.

The memories of his class came flooding back. Not so much all of the lessons, though I shocked myself into receiving better grades than I ever had in my high school Government class. This class–this soft-spoken professor–had piqued my curiosity and I found a place in me that began to grow in knowledge, not just regurgitate useless information from an old textbook. He loved students and teaching, and it showed in his eagerness to share his wealth of information.  I had struggled with learning at different times throughout school, but had discovered my learning style and my confidence in college and it showed in the new grades I had been earning. I mentioned that the class was honors because I found that the smaller class and more hands-on, conversational and focused learning was what helped me to excel. 

This class also happened to take place during my first year as a registered voter, and I had not really paid attention to or cared much for political topics before, other than Jimmy Carter (and daughter Amy) was my favorite and he liked peanuts!  Sure, I heard my parents talking and I knew where they stood on candidates, but I had my own mind, and I was new to the world in many ways, having just stepped into college as a fresh adult.  I really wanted to honor that part of myself that was curious–about people, about issues, about the world, and where my place was in all of it. If I was going to vote, it would be my vote–not just what my parents believed (unless I agreed, of course!). 

When my professor spoke on the upcoming election, I began to learn something very important about him, and it's something I've never forgotten my whole life. He said at the beginning of our August term, in his low, soft Spanish accent, that we would never learn what his "political leaning" was. We would learn instead about more important things. And he stuck to it. Not once could we detect a favoring of one side or another, nor did he judge, cheer, or sneer toward any student who did. Not so much as a blink or sniffle when strong opinions came flying from the back of the classroom! We all joked, trying to figure it out, but we never did! I came to find a true comfort in this kind of presence and indulged myself in it, knowing that this was the way people should conduct themselves when wanting others to learn, and more importantly, to listen. I was so young, yet I look back now and I know that his example colored everything I believe today about getting along with others when it comes to the delicate subjects in life. (I didn't say I was successful at it...yet)

They will be celebrating his life later this month. As I read further in his obituary, I learned more about this man who was responsible for shaping my political mindset. This is just one paragraph of several that described him:

"This look at --'s life would not be complete, though, without mentioning his dedication and passion for self-governance and the assurance of due process. It didn't matter to him who was right or wrong, on the same side as he was or not—ensuring due process was the critical procedure for sorting it out. Justice and fairness throughout everything from life at the college to life in the United States had to include due process. He taught it, and he practiced it whenever he could. This dedication was absolutely the lawyer, the professor, and the humanitarian rolled into one ethic." 

His long career was marked by several awards and positions, however, he will never know the impact he had on each one of his young students like me. 

It's another election year, and I'm long past my teenage years. I'm remembering the past few elections and how tumultuous they've been, and how I haven't always been able to "professor" my way through them with a gentle presence. We are facing yet another difficult election year, and continue to be a divided land in many ways. I'm curious about how he handled the things America has faced, and what he would have said from an American's just and fair point of view. I can only search out this definition for myself with the application of his legacy, and combine it with the practice of God's application of love and grace. My mentor, Norm, reminds me of this every time I get upended over something going on in the world. Psalm 118:8 It is better to trust in the Lord than to put confidence in man.  We can't control the actions and reactions of others, and we certainly can't control what happens in the world, but we can control ourselves and we can trust God. 

When I think about this in a "big picture" sense, I think about what is most important. When someone reads my obituary one day, what do I want to be remembered by? Is it how I influenced people to vote, or is it how I influenced people to love or live in harmony with one another? And if it's the latter, how can I apply love and peace to everything and everyone, every single day until the day I die? Colossians 3:12-14 Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them together in perfect unity. 

Thursday, October 10, 2024

Challenge Update

God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging. There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. 

Psalm 46:1-4


I am popping in to say that I will not be posting my final fire challenge this week, and it may be some time before I will be able to complete it. My vacation was not a factor, as previously stated, as the vacation did not end up taking place. I got sick and had to cancel our anniversary trip. I am waiting for the woodstove to be installed in the cabin and then I will complete the final challenge, God willing. 

My struggles pale in comparison to the millions of people down south who are reeling from the double hurricane aftermath. While there are plenty of places to donate, it is sometimes hard to vet the ones that are legitimate. I found some pre-vetted sites on today.com if you are interested.

May God be with each and every person struggling today, whether it is with a hurricane mess or some other disaster. There is no shortage of disasters in our big world. Sometimes there are so many things going on at once, I can't keep it all straight. Thank God I don't have to. We can pray, help each other, and keep looking for the blessings we know will be there. 

Wednesday, October 2, 2024

Fire Challenge: The Hungry Fire

 When I woke up this morning, I was covered all the way up to my chin with both of the blankets on the bed. That is unusual for me, and what it told me was that it was going to be the perfect day for the next Fire Challenge! I stepped out of bed, and sure enough, the house was cold, and it looked pretty chilly outside too. Yay!! Who else is ready for sweater weather? Oh, just me? 

Today's Fire Challenge is called "The Hungry Fire" (Thank you, Brooke- Girl in the Woods) and it's about pushing myself to my edge, literally and figuratively. It's about letting my mind take control of my body and being empowered by how that feels–both physically and mentally.     

 I can easily fall into a depressed state when my body is in severe pain and stopping me from enjoying life, because I just can't see the point of the pain. I try not to stay there too long, but there is always a fear of that feeling lingering, so I'm taking steps to better manage my body and my mind as one, super-powered unit! Pain is pain, plain and simple, but it needs to stop winning in my mind. It already takes my body. 

So this challenge was needed, because my body and my mind are often incompatible with one another. We are to be transformed by the renewing of our minds all the time. These challenges are helpful to me, but just like Brooke, I do them with God's help, because without Him, all of this stuff is just human-powered, and I've already tried that stuff. It doesn't last.  Romans 12:2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is–his good, pleasing and perfect will. 

Okay, on to the challenge! You're not going to like this any more than I did! Today was the day for it because it was the chilliest morning we had, and the challenge was to jump in a cold body of water first thing in the morning, have a fire, and then cook something over it. Yikes! Well, I don't have a body of water handy, so I decided to do this challenge in the safety of my shower. I turned on the icy, frigid water in my cold, unheated bathroom, took a few deep breaths and stepped in. I followed Brooke's instructions to avoid gasping, shrieking, shaking, or any other normal human response. I have to say, I was very cool and chill about the whole thing. (I had to!) However, after a few shocking and near-death moments, I became slightly nauseous, so I decided I felt empowered enough and stepped right on outta there. Seriously though, what I got out of it was that I am able to empower my body with my mind and let it know that I am in control. Who is the boss of this body? ME! Brrrrr....I was kinda proud of that moment. 

When Brooke stepped out of the river, she said things like, "That was painfully good! Wow, that was great!" That was not my experience, but who knows? Maybe I will get better at this as I get stronger. I do want to add that if you decide to try this, you may want to check with your doctor first to make sure it's safe for you to do. 

I had no plans to cook anything, as I don't eat breakfast, but I went outside and built a big fire, and pondered the verse that Brooke suggested for this challenge, Philippians 4:8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable–if anything is excellent or praiseworthy–think about such things. And that's where it's at. Where is my mind? What am I thinking about? What am I hungry for–figuratively?

Where our minds go, our health can follow, and I am an example of that. I struggle with anxiety, and it does terrible things to my body. I started these challenges because I am willing to go out of my comfort zone. Sometimes that's what it takes for both the body and the mind to get on track. 

A change in behavior, attitude, thoughts, and practices don't change with just a great Bible verse, a sermon, one challenge or even five. It's a desire and a decision to want change, first of all. And then a continuation of the renewing of the mind and the good discipline that follows. 

With each challenge, I have done the physical exercise, the journaling, and the fires. Along with that, I have noticed daily lessons coming from my mentor, and I'm continuing reading and journaling along with another helpful book. When I'm finished with all of these, I will move on to more learning tools. When we want change in an area of our lives, we need to keep asking for God's help, and then keep it moving. 

I've journaled along the way and asked myself some tough questions too. Life is never about standing still and expecting things to get better. It's about looking within and saying, "God, what do you want to change in me so that I can better represent You?" 

**Stay tuned for my final challenge. It may be delayed due to some vacation plans, but you won't want to miss it! 

Remembering the Professor

  He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with ...