Happy Thoughts

Believe it or not, only a few things really drive me bat-crazy bonkers. I'll refrain from the negativity of a complete list, but the biggest thing that frustrates me is usually me.  I can annoy myself pretty much by myself, any time of the day pretty much about anything. But this time, I am beyond annoyed and there isn't anything I can do to fix it!

I have forgotten my Yahoo email password.  When I got my new phone I had to sign in all over again, and that's when I realized I forgot it, and I had changed it years ago when yahoo had a big security breach. I wrote it down "somewhere", but didn't record it with the rest of my passwords, and so I have a million (probably useless) emails floating around since July that I cannot access, and no, I don't have/don't think I have a security question, nor do I know a good hacker. And no, Yahoo is not helping me with my dilemma. Bunch of safety-loving yahoos keeping my junk email hostage forever. And yes, that bugs me.

Since July, as I've organized different areas, I have rifled through every piece of loose paper in the house. I've looked in storage bins, in file cabinets, and even in old notebooks looking for some hint of the magic word. I have not seen any hint of my password, but have found a lot of lost items, including a couple of poems I had lost on my computer but had handwritten them as well.  It makes me really thankful for paper and pen, since my computer has not proven itself to be very loyal to me. As I always say, "Technology rejects me." It's mutual most days.  Since most of my music disappeared to the cloud last night with no warning, I am now angry with my iphone and Apple and the Cloud and the fact that I will now have to reload all of those songs is kinda miffing me too. Gotta love technology. Not.  (insert bull with smoke coming from nostrils here)

While searching for the forever-forgotten, on-the-run, ever- elusive password, I came across a  12 page back-to-back jumble of mismatched, handwritten  papers stapled together ironically titled, "Happy Thoughts". I remember  starting this list sometime in high school, and it looks like I added to it after the birth of my children, considering I added the entries, "hearing Natalie laugh", and "Serena's dimple". It's amazing how many of these things still hold true to me today, indicating to me that I haven't changed much since starting this happy list. Well, maybe just a little....

I may have stopped "eating frosting  straight from the can", but I still love "sunsets", "rolling up my pant legs to walk on the beach at night", "chasing fireflies", "sitting by campfires," and "the smell and sounds of campgrounds." I'm not quite sure I'd giggle quite as hard if someone asked me to "punch me as hard as you can in the stomach!", but I still laugh when I see those "talking ninja turtles". I love "sleeping in tents", "hot summer nights", "watching fish jump", and "driving with the windows down and the music up". I don't watch "Batman and Robin" much anymore, but I still love "huge round maple trees", "sweet old men who hold open doors," "Calvin and Hobbes", and "chocolate". I can't see myself "raiding the refrigerator at midnight" much anymore, because I'm just happy to be asleep at that hour now, but I still love "a sky loaded with stars", a "tank full of gas and a day to explore", "a field of daisies", and "the smell of new wood". I still love "making snow angels", "tickling 3-year olds silly", "dancing like a fool", "doing fake karate moves","singing in the shower", and "the smell of the grill". I still like "muscles", though I'm working on building my own now! I still love to "make everyone's middle name 'Louise' ","driving through snow drifts", "cloud-watching", and I still believe in "following rainbows to find the pot of gold", at least with my camera.  And there is just something about that  Michael J. Fox, because his name was on my list not once, not twice, but three times! I could go on and on with "happy thoughts", but I'll spare you. My younger self was just slightly more silly than my current one! Just slightly... ;)

Now if I could just find that password.....ugh... I need a vacation. I'll be in my "blanket fort", "dunking oreos in milk", and  happily writing down happy thoughts in my trusty "notebooks".