First of all, thank you, GOD, for helping me figure out how to unfollow blogs...:) it turns out I had to be in a certain browser to do it properly! Secondly, my previous blog may have been just a bit whiny (sp?) and I don't care. I have been feeling pretty down about some things lately, and it just seems like I can't get ahead! I can't win! I'm so "Charlie Brown-ed" out! I've "had it". I'm "done"! Just when I think things are better, something else happens.
I'm running out of patience. I'm not sure I had enough to begin with! These are the challenging times in my life where trusting God with my life is the most difficult. When things are going well, I'm praising and quoting scripture! When I am losing hope, I get quiet. This is so backwards and I know it. Don't get me wrong. I thank God every day for who He is. I thank Him for sustaining me even when I don't think I can take one more thing. I thank Him for working in my life though it's in His timing and I may have to continue to wait. And hope.And pray. And keep my eyes on Him and not my problems. So hard to do....that's why we need Him. It's why I need Him.
I know He doesn't give as the world does. That's the hardest thing to grasp sometimes. I sometimes fail to understand the love God has for me and so I lose sight of what He is trying to do through me and in me. I forget that I am here for Him and not for me. I fail. A lot.
And yet if I believe what I read in the Bible (and I do), then I have to know that everything's going to work out the way it's supposed to, even when it makes no sense to me at all. Trust. Faith. Hope. Small words. Huge meanings. Big God. Little me.
2 comments:
You're not alone Jami. I struggle too with trusting God in the midst of the storm. I've often told my friends that it's when they don't hear from me they should be worried. I too believe that God is in control and in the end, it will be ok. God bless you and thank you for your honesty and vulnerability.
Check out my verse for the day, I think you can find some hope in it. "Distress that drives us to God does that. It turns us around. It gets us back in the way of salvation. We never regret that kind of pain. But those who let distress drive them away from God are full of regrets, end up on a deathbed of regrets." -2 Corinthians 7:10 (MSG)
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